(Satprem suggests he read certain past Agenda conversations to Mother. She refuses:) You know, I've almost felt like telling you that all this Agenda stuff isn't meant for circulation. It's only for when I have come to the end - and then what's in it won't matter at all. Or else I will have gone, leaving a note saying I don't want it published ... Why!... and that I am giving it only to ... I will say to whom. So it doesn't matter. Actually, you could type it up just as it is on the tape. You want to read it to me mainly to get (laughing) some additions, hmm? There may be additions, but there are also some questions.I should delete some things, shouldn't I? No, no, not delete! But sometimes I haven't quite grasped something, or else I've had to interpret because you made a gesture or....Because it was incomplete, unexpressed. There are a few points like that in all these texts. It's up to you whether I read only those points or....You see, a time will come, I think ... a time will come when things will be interesting. So in fact, it's better not to waste the tapes. No, I really don't agree! Objectively speaking, it's extremely instructive to see the difficulties you have passed through.It may be instructive, but it can't be published; it's much too personal. To be published now, yes - but what about fifty years from now? ...Oh, in fifty years it won't be interesting any more. Come on!You think so? Of course I do! The whole path is there....Well, let's make a date for fifty years from now and see how much it interests us then. But it will, Mother! Do you think you'll have white hair? ... I don't have white hair I don't dye it, you know, it's natural! No, your hair is a color that never turns white. Listen, I'm already all white at the temples!Will you have a beard in fifty years? No, I don't like beards.Ah, good, so much the better! I would rather shave everything off.Then you'll be like a Bhikku. [[Bhikku: Buddhist monk. ]] Well. We'll see about the Agenda in fifty years, then. But really Mother, objectively, there's a tremendous number of interesting things in it....Yes, mon petit, but next time, not today.
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